I've decided

I have decided I am not going to attend my high school prom. I know many people will tell me that I will regret this decision. Honestly, part of me thinks that too. But I'm just not cut out for it. It's not because I don't have a certain date or whatnot. I'm just not financially stabled to buy a dress, prom tickets, dinner, hair, shoes and all the components that are necessary just for this one night. I'm not ashamed to say that I don't have a job to fulfill my needs and financial needs in life. My Mom and brother provides me with that. What can one do if she can't find a job due to lack of experience? What can one do if one...? I don't want to spill all my personal in depth things about my life here. Please don't think I'm lazy because I'm definitely not lazy. That's one word I dislike. It's like saying I'm useless. I work hard with everything I do especially school. There are just no opportunities that has come to me yet and I know one day I will reach my goal of providing for myself and my loved ones. I'm hoping attending college and getting my education will further me in life. Despite the high cost of putting myself through school and getting financial aid, I know one day it will be all worth it in the long run. Even if this means I will be in debt. There are just certain things that happens in life that are unexpected and you just have to deal with it. Some say, "If you want change, make it happen". That is not completely true nor false. This is why. As much as we want to change certain things in life, we can't just have the urge and change it ourselves. It takes time and courage and determination. It also depends on the person's ability and situation. Don't judge me or manipulate things I tell you to your own personal perspective. There's a reason why I chose to share and tell you things about me. But apparently, some people these days are still naive and inconsiderate about sensitive matters. I mean yeah, everyone is entitled to their own opinions but I wish people think before they speak.

I apologize for this 'all-over-the-place blog but expect more of these because that's the real me. Full of discombobulated thoughts flowing. I'll be venting and writing more of my thoughts here because I can and I will. I don't care if people read it or not. It's my own source to release all my thoughts.

"Our future is based on visions and insights."

Till next time...

:)